Or should I say I'm expanding right now. Another little Bobka is going to bless our home! We could not be more excited! I think Brady is more excited about #2 than he was about #1. Haha! I'm due in July. I'm getting a c-section again so my date is already set to July 18. The day before Baine's birthday. We couldn't be happier about this and we are so excited to have 2. Blackett tried to see what the baby was last week when I was in there but the baby was not really cooperating. Plus I'm thinking I'm not going to find out what the baby is. I want that experience at least once. To me, I don't get the experience of having a child vaginally. Sure I could see if I could do it this time but my uterus is weirdly shaped I guess and Blackett says that it would just be so hard to go through labor and then most likely have an emergency c-section. So I'll just stick with the plan, which was so easy last time, and just get cut open again. Brady is going to find out. He can't wait. He has sworn to me that he won't tell anyone. He had better not, because I'm in charge and he won't come to the birth if he's going to ruin this for me. :) We will see if I stay strong and don't cave. This pregnancy has been different from Baines but not extremely. We found out the night before Thanksgiving. I take a lot of tests, usually 1 a month, Brady always teasing me that all I have to do to get my period to come is take a test. When we found out we were excited but we also didn't know what was to come to we weren't overly excited. Which sounds sad but it wasn't. Considering our track record there was reason for us to feel that way, but here we are! I can't wait for my 20 week ultrasound to make sure every little part is developing correctly. Here's a little picture.
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| Here's a side view of the baby. Baby is faced down. Head is up top on the left. You can also see the spine really well. |
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I just want to write down a little of our journey to this point. It's really just for my records.
After we had Baine we decided since it took us a while to get Baine that we wouldn't go on any birth control. Although we were careful until Baine was about 8 months, then we did start to actively try for another one. My problem is getting pregnant and then sometimes holding on to that baby is hard for my body. So when Baine was a year and a half we found out we were pregnant. Everything seemed right. Unlike my miscarriage before Baine, I actually had all the symptoms of a pregnancy. We didn't tell anyone because for us, we were embarrassed with our first miscarriage when we had to tell everyone, "just kidding". I hated the pity party and the phone calls from everyone telling me they were sorry and what could they do. It sucked. So my pregnancy symptoms literally only lasted 2-3 days. I went into the doctors office to get a pregnancy test there. After I took it the lady came and showed me the stick, there was a barely a hint of positive. At that point I kind of had a feeling what was happening. I wasn't feeling the symptoms anymore either. A couple of days later I started bleeding. I wasn't sure if I had lost anything or not because this was not like my first miscarriage what-so-ever. Blackett made an appointment for me to come in and talk to her since we had been trying. I went in and told her what had happened. She said most likely is was a miscarriage. She asked if I wanted to go on Chlomed. I said no. I wasn't to that point yet. She said that we can do artificial insemination. I thought, well that sounds alright. When it came down to it I just thought, I've done this on my own before. Baine isn't very old. Obviously it isn't my time yet so I just needed to be more patient. After about 8 months of researching, I figured out that a lot of women who have a hard time getting pregnant is due to inbalance of hormones. Also you could be low on estrogen. I've started using the Doterra Essential Oils and there is some pills for helping balance out your hormones. These pills are all natural. It is all stuff that even if you start reading about hormones, these things come up. So long story short I wasn't putting chemicals into my body. I was all natural. I took these pills for 3 weeks, went to Disneyland and apparently it really is the happiest place on earth. Now all I need to do for a 3rd child is go on vacation and take some pills. We were able to get Baine on vacation too. I'd like to say that since I haven't had any bleeding this pregnancy that I feel normal but since no one's pregnancy is normal and I'm a freak and always think bad thoughts, I've haven't felt easy yet. Hopefully I'll have a little more closure when I go to the 20 week appt. Hopefully it will ease my fears. It might feel like it takes us a while to get pregnant, but it doesn't. I might feel sorry for my self at times, but I shouldn't. It is hard to remember that sometimes but I know a lot of people who have had harder times. I have a lot of family who have had hard pregnancies, hard labors, miscarriages, hard times getting pregnant. I have friends who can't even have babies. I just wish we could all have them how we wanted and when we wanted.......but what fun would that be?! We wouldn't be able to bitch about our lives! Haha! (there is no other word to use than that) :)
